January 27th 2015.

the exact date that i wrote and i sticked on the wall that on that date,

I'm going to end this, defend my thesis and got my S.Psi.

turned out this morning i lay on my bad and writing this post.

I finished my thesis on the end of December, and yet until now i haven't got any date yet when i could go and fight on my thesis defense. poor system, poor management and they still claimed my uni as one of the best national universities, in contrast. what the heck.

i got depressed this few days right after i knew that my first schedule of thesis defense is being canceled. i asked to the closest person of mine "ergh i don't know why i lose my appetite just for hanging out with friends, all i want is just sleeping and do everything alone", yet i know those are actually some vital signs of depression. hahaha. i got annoyed easily, too by the way.
the benefit you'll get as a psychology student is probably you are going to know your self more, knowing that its okay to be depressed, lol. and you gotta give your self a space. SO, its okay self.. you are normal.

everything went smooth right from the start, i did something big for my own thesis and God seems make everything went so.. easy. I finished them all in three months, which i think thats quite fast. But doesn't it seems plain and just.. weird? to successfully achieve something without sum obstacles? Boring right.

and so here i am..
I am amazed of how God put me in a condition that could make me grow better and stronger. Thank you God for not letting me to got a thing i want without any extra efforts :)
Im pretty sure that in every journey, in every achievement, there's must be something that going to test my patience, something that different from my first expectation, something that totally run out from my plan, but those are some golds that going to make this worth, memorable. 

and i always believe that You are going to put a smile on my face right in the end :)

OOOHHHHHHHHHHHH.
but i really need to finished this SOON, really :(