so this' what they said that everything's uncertain. The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty, the mistake is believe that i can manage the failure, and whatever. turned out its just a pieces of theories.

What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone.

However much you wanted someone to want you, there was nothing you could do to make it happen. Whatever you did for them, whatever you gave them, whatever you let them take, it could never be enough. Never enough to be sure. Never enough to satisfy them. Never enough to stop them walking away.

Never enough to make them love you back.

and now, i'll let my self to cry.

you deserve a time to cry.

how could you make me love you this painful.